If this environment has the wherewithal to inspire a desire within you, this environment has the wherewithal to deliver it to you, no exceptions.
Were going to start where you are and build you into the vibration that is necessary for you to be, do, or have anything you want.
I am beginning to understand that I am more than I see here in this physical body. I acknowledge that there is a larger part of me, a source energy part of me that is truly the essence of who I am. And I accept that a part of this consciousness is now flowing in this physical body and so there is a sort of duality going on within me where I have this stable beginning and becoming, and then there is the part of me that is focused here in this physical body. And I understand with clarity the value of the two parts of that which I am.
I can feel the eternalness of who I really am and I can feel the specifics of who I am in this human form on this leading edge time-space platform. And I am beginning to feel appreciation for the contrasts that surrounds me that once I condemned and now I embrace because I can feel that the contrast is inspiring yet another new idea from me and I remember feeling a new idea being born within me and hating the birthing of it because it was an idea that I did not believe and therefore brought me pain.
But now I’m experiencing the thrill of giving birth to new ideas, and even though I don’t know how or when or who, it will come about I don’t know where, I don’t have the details of how it will unfold. I do have Faith or belief in the laws of the universe and I am knowing that I am a creator who having given birth to this idea will be given all of the advantages of the resources of source in order to accomplish it.
So while I stand in this place of wanting something that I have no way of figuring out how it’s going to be…I am feeling soothed in the awareness of it, no more than soothed,
I not only feel soothed about having given birth to an idea of something that I want, I’m feeling enlivened by it. Because the larger part of me knows unequivocally that I am the own creator of my own experience and that larger part of me is not only looking at it and agreeing with it but has become the vibrational equivalent of it, that the larger part of me has already become what I’m asking for and so now it’s only a matter of the rest of me catching up with it and now that I know what I know I don’t think this will be too much trouble.
When I move in the direction of catching up with it I feel better and when I move in opposition of catching up with it I feel worse and I am feeling so sensitive to the way I’ve been feeling these days and I’m so proud of myself because I’m aware of when I’m going with the flow and when I am not, I’m aware of when I’m moving downstream and when I’m moving upstream, I can feel when I’m letting myself be who I have become and I can feel when I’m not letting myself be who I have become and I’m no longer mad at myself in the moments when I’m not letting myself be who I’ve become because those moment only help me know the difference in the guidance system. I can feel I’m actually molding the clay.
I’m finally in the place, I don’t need to be the manifested receiver of everything that I want all at once because I know that it’s all coming, that there will never be a time when I’m not sending more rockets of desire into my future.
I’m finally beginning to get it that I never get it done and I cannot get it wrong because everything I’m living is causing and expansion and I can tell by the way I feel that I am moving toward that expansion or not. Finally I’m begging to understand that it was never about the fulfillment or the manifestation anyway!
These things that I want are only my target to focus upon so that I can ride this river of life.
I am fulfilled in the knowing that I am expanding and I am thrilled in the knowledge that I’ll never get it done, and I am satisfied, deeply satisfied with where I am. I am thrilled in knowing that I am where I am and that I’m putting the boat in the water wherever I am, and my knowledge that the stream is flowing downstream ever flowing towards all that I’ve become is enough for me to feel satisfaction where I am.
No more will I nit-pick as I measure the distance between where I am and where I want to be. Instead I flow on this joyous river and I experience the exhilarating feeling of motion toward my expansion. I can feel that the source within me loves me and adores me and has become the expanded version and I can feel that there is no remorse or discomfort whatsoever in the being of my source.
My source; not for a moment; looks at me where I stand and compares where I am to where it is and mocks me in the non-achievement. Instead the source within me that is expanded as a result of what I have lived stands in loving appreciation of all that I have become and calls me never endedly toward it. And now I get it that that’s what life is, that the duality of me, that the source energy that was willing to come forth that expanded out further and now the physical part of me that’s willing to catch up. I now get my place in this universe. I’m important to the expansion of the universe and it’s time for me to receive the benefit of my expansion. And now I know how.
